Thursday, January 13, 2005

thank god for skeptics.

someone put up one of those flimsy markerboards you get for free as promotions for whatever (in the dorm, they were for beer. this one happens to be for a credit union).

anyway, various people have been writing things on it for a while. at one point, it was the subject of a slightly humiliating grammar lesson. however currently, it says:

Don't be afraid to try new things. Amateurs built the ark; professionals built the titanic

(or it would if whoever wrote it knew how to use semi-colons. anyway)

below it, in different handwriting, it says:
In each case, it was not the builders who governed the fate of the ship, but the person at the helm.


mmm. deflating pompous cliches since ~300BC.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

food attitudes.

i've recently been hearing about this book and, you know, it's really making me wonder. how do most people eat?

i mean, really. what is this?
The French way of life requires shopping several times a week at small markets or well-stocked supermarkets that carry quality produce. It involves cooking with herbs and fresh foods, not processed ones, something many American women say they do not have the time or talent to do.


if you don't cook your own meals, what do you eat? tv dinners? not only do i go food shopping every week, i used to work in a grocery store. i've never seen a single cart piled high with tv dinners. sure, a few here, a few there, but no one throws 15 dinners in their cart. and don't ask me to believe everyone eats mcdonalds every night either; a lot of people just can't afford that.

one thing she's right about, though, is that people here don't eat for pleasure. being fat is the new moral yardstick. it used to be if you were poor, you had done something wrong morally. increasingly, it's fat. being fat means there's something else wrong with you. implicit in that is a demonizing of food, and especially enjoying food. when you get down to it, a lot of this country has absorbed the most dangerous of the old puritan values: that physical pleasure is somehow in and of itself evil. just look at how we handle (or completely fail to handle) sex. the same thing goes for food. to be someone who lives to eat rather than who merely eats to live is an invitation for contempt. if you enjoy food, you'll get fat. if you're fat, you're morally corrupt. and don't even get me started on how we treat alcohol. that's a subject for another post entirely.

yes, i'm on a diet now, but that's because i stopped moving. for years, i walked a couple miles a day. then i graduated, got a job and a car and started packing on the pounds. but i haven't changed how i eat. i'm not eating slimfast or weight watchers, i'm eating what i always made for myself: stir fry, homemade soups, fried chicken. ooo. i think we'll have tacos for dinner tonight.

i dunno. i cook dinner every night. i didn't think that was so weird. and who doesn't cook with herbs? under the most refined tortures (or on a public forum seemingly designed for the grossest of personal confessions) i will certainly admit to using broth from a can and tomato sauce from a jar. but i still dump herbs in there. we had lasagne for dinner last night. sauce out of a jar, cheese out of tubs. but good-quality sauce and cheese and noodles. and i played with the recipe and added in some herbs and spices. am i really so different? i know my in-laws go to costco and buy frozen lasagne with orange sauce. is that what most people eat? they think i'm funny because i'll spend the extra money to buy low-fat meats, good cheeses, olive oil, and grow my own herbs. why would i take the time to make my own hamburgers when i could buy them for $1.99/lb at costco? i guess because i know the difference between 20%fat 1/3lb unseasoned slabs from costco and the ones i make myself.

for one, mine are healthier.

i guess maybe that answers my question. not tv dinners, but frozen hamburgers and pre-seasoned turkey roasts from costco and sam's club are what people eat instead of cooking for themselves. i have to say, i feel sorry for them. to not know what good food is, and to not allow themselves to enjoy it. i guess i'm just morally corrupt that way.

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

has anybody seen my brain today?

(apologies to green velvet).

zzz. zzz.

as a quick word of explanation, i'm on a diet and have started going to a gym because since i graduated from university, i've gained 10~15lbs. while i'm technically still in the "healthy" range for BMI and body-fat percentage, i'm only just barely there. i'm feeling fat and squishy. i'd say the squishyness is more bothersome than the fatness, but they kind of go hand in hand. also, i've had to buy all new jeans.

it's kind of funny. when i was in school, every time i came home for vacation or went back after a break, practically everyone would ask me if i lost weight. it was like i ballooned up in people's memories when i wasn't around. it was mildly disturbing, actually. now, of course, i have gained weight. we'll just have to see what happens when i do in fact lose it.

Saturday, January 8, 2005

low-fat pumpkin bread.

i'm on a diet. wish me luck ;)

Friday, January 7, 2005

oh my.

somehow, this does not fill me with confidence. especially that last comment o.O
AREA FORECAST DISCUSSION...CORRECTED HEADER
NATIONAL WEATHER SERVICE MOUNT HOLLY NJ
1040 AM EST FRI JAN 7 2005

ANOTHER TRICKY WX SITUATION ON THE WAY. CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME POTENTIAL FOR 2ND ICE EVENT SAME AREA IN LESS THAN TWO DAYS. COUPLE OF OUR ANEMOMETERS FROZEN SO DON'T BE FOOLED BY CALM WINDS NRN ZONES.

looks like we're in for another great weekend.

Thursday, January 6, 2005

they promise not to do that.

i got put on this project. i am in a dilbert cartoon.

i love working with our hong kong office. the spec has been re-issued 3 times, but they never changed the revision number because that involves too much paperwork

not only that, but one of the revisions involved this little gem:

you have a block of data which is made up of smaller blocks of data. you add a new 8 byte block. you don't change any of the other lengths.

16 + 8 no longer equals 16 anymore.

they promise not to use that option.

i love my job *cough*

Wednesday, January 5, 2005

i think i need a new job.

it's really amazing what opportunities are out there today. to say nothing of what our tax dollars are spent on.

Tuesday, January 4, 2005

beginning of the year redux.

why now? because there's so little to redux ;)

still. ugh. back to the daily grind.

on the other hand, you'd be amazed what getting 10-12 hours of sleep a night will do for your immune system. i think i'm finally over those damn viruses.

tomorrow's looking exciting, however.

Wednesday. Rain in the morning. Then snow. Sleet and rain in the afternoon. Snow accumulation of 1 to 2 inches. Temperatures in the lower to mid 30s. Northeast winds 5 to 10 mph.

Wednesday night. Snow and sleet in the evening. Then freezing rain after midnight. Light snow accumulations possible. Lows around 30. East winds 5 to 10 mph.


also, could someone convince me to stop reading about asperger's syndrome? at this rate, i'm about to self-diagnose :P

Sunday, January 2, 2005

so that's why i can't lose weight.

some people use eating as a psychological crutch. when they get upset, stressed out, bored, depressed, panicky, etc, they eat. there are support groups for people who have undergone bariatric surgery because removing the physical capacity to consume food does absolutely nothing for the emotional dependence on it (no, i'm not pulling that out of my ass, but the philadelphia inquirer keeps losing my password so i can't link to their article on it).

the thing is, that's not really my problem. when i get upset, bored, depressed, i use cooking as a therapy. so i end up eating.

anyone want some yoghurt-cheddar biscuit-things?

Saturday, January 1, 2005

happy new year.

and again: happy new year!

we slept until 1pm and then got up and made bacon and eggs and home fries and toast and too much strong coffee. and orange juice, but we didn't make that. it came out of a carton.